What if you got all ever you wanted and you felt nothing but fear??....
Is a Life Without FEAR or Self Doubt Possible?
Jan 20, 2021
Below is what I wrote in my journal in a very raw moment while I was travelling home from Bali at the start of the year. A trip that truly changed my life as I left for Bali coaching for someone and came home owning my own business and had already achieved a six month finance goal in a few weeks..
"I have been working so long for this very moment; to own my OWN business, to speak in the way i wanted, to inspire other women, to be making 5 figures and focusing on growing to 6 figures but how i thought i would feel at this moment is different to the reality.
I am afraid. What if i can’t maintain it? What if i can’t grow it?
For all the time I have spent on becoming strong, unstoppable and to find my true self I still have that little voice in my head ‘Am I enough?’As I stare myself in the mirror as the woman I always dreamed of being, I am afraid. I am coming home from Bali after starting my own business and making 5 figs in a few days, I feel the strength that i can do this and the trust that i am going to be great at this and this will be great but i still have that little thought as i look at myself ‘are you sure?’
They say people who are relentless don’t have fear, i am not too sure...Perhaps a better way to look at it is that you feel afraid but you do it anyway. I am relentless, that I know. There is zero chance that i wont achieve my dreams but I am still afraid, its pretty scary to go out in the world on my own. I have known nothing outside of a secure career and here I am about to turn my back on all that and go for something I ‘feel’ is going to be a success. My logical head is always piping up to ask ‘is this the best path?’I have come to accept that I will always rationalise things, doesnt mean i am not strong. I still feel fear, I still get wrapped up in fear, I still doubt myself at times, i may freeze when looking at myself in the mirror wondering do I truly have what it takes. Someone once told me that I wouldn’t make it if i felt like that.
However, I dont think that is true, yes i may take a little longer than some other people to jump, yes i may feel fear more so than others but I am still doing it. I am still looking fear in the face and saying ‘I can do this’. I may still feel that ‘oh fck’ dread at times but i still throw myself off the ledge and out of comfort zone because all though i may not know exactly know where this is all headed and that can be scary, I know who Laura Lambe is and that is enough to provide comfort in any challenge"